unmapped adventure
by Elouise
Restless uncertainties clamor
Living reminders of death
And the loneliness of aging
I stare out the window
Looking for a sign, a thought
That points the way ahead
Through shapeless days
Living within boundaries shifting
From one day to the next
Thou shalt not taunts me
Thou shalt snaps at my heels
Dares me to veer from this
Strange path to everything
And to nothing at all—
Dreams wander without clear
Themes or destinations
Days come and go
Like all the others
One day up
The next day down
The cup is full
The cup is empty
The magic recipe eludes me
Leaving nothing
But the raw gift of life—
Becoming myself
In this unmapped adventure
© Elouise Renich Fraser, 7 March 2019
Image found at pinterest.com
Telling the Truth 
Some use the North Star some use the face of Jesus as the fixed single point. Last week I had my second emergency trip to the hospital leading to conclusion of benign vertigo. Both times, years apart, the events felt like anything but benign as the world was spinning around me I was only calmed by knowing the sky was blue the sun was shining and ” I know he watches me” Praying the same for you. Blessings!
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Dave, Thanks for this comment. I answered it earlier (on my Ipad), but see it isn’t showing up. Vertigo is no picnic! I’m glad to hear it’s ‘benign.’ A strange designation for something that causes so much agony. Hopefully, it won’t happen again. Thanks so much for your prayers. This thing called retirement isn’t always a picnic. I love your comment about the blue sky, the shining sun, and the way they helped you know you were in God’s sight/hands.
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Haunting. Thank you for articulating so poignantly this feeling, which I know all too well. Peace!
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Oh…Thank you, Nancy! It’s such a strange time of life….Not horrible, but definitely throwing me off balance. I keep thinking I’m too OLD/YOUNG for this! Apparently I am not. It’s comforting to know I’ve got company! 🙂
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Very well expressed ! It brings out so elegantly what so many people feel.. loved reading it 🙂
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Thank you, Isha, for this kind comment. I’m so happy it connected. 🙂
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