Telling the Truth

connecting the dots of my life

“Several years ago…”

This true story is at the end of Confessions of a Beginning Theologian.  I referred to it in a recent post.  Here’s more of the story, including the way it played out in my life a year later.

Several years ago I was in my car, on my way to the first day of spring semester classes.  I felt shaky and uncertain.  A year earlier, students had lodged serious complaints against me.  They were reported to me anonymously at the end of the semester; several pages, single-spaced and typed.  I was devastated. Read the rest of this entry »

A Child’s Prayer

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Near to me,
not far away,
lies a world
where we can be
all that we
were meant to be.
Won’t you come
and go with me?

* * *

© Elouise Renich Fraser, 7 February 2015
Photo credit:  DAFraser, April 2004
Children’s Garden at Longwood Gardens, PA

Why can’t I stop writing? | Part 1

The more I write, the more I want to write.  Do I have a life outside of blogging?  Absolutely.  Yet it seems I can’t stop writing.

Why can’t I stop writing? – Answer #1
Writing is the way I Read the rest of this entry »

lush jacaranda

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lush jacaranda

floats fragrance on bright spring air–

sinks roots deep in soil

* * *

In fall 1999, when I was on my Nairobi sabbatical, I walked down this driveway and footpath daily. The scenery and smell were always changing, depending on the weather and what was cooking in the houses next to the footpath.

Because Nairobi is near the equator, the days and nights were nearly even.  Sunrise and sunset arrived within half an hour of specified times.  Within minutes daybreak arrived and the sun was up;  dark descended just as suddenly.  Flowers and flowering shrubs bloomed year round.  During the day, the sun baked the top of my head.  I carried a small sun parasol every time I left our apartment to walk to the main campus.

Most of the time it was dry and mild.  Chilly in the early morning and at night, but pleasantly warm during the day, especially in the sun.  Then the long rains began.  Rain fell in sheets and torrents.  They came suddenly, hung around for several weeks, and left as suddenly.

During the long rains, a large depression in a field next to the driveway/footpath quickly filled with enough water to create an impromptu pond.  Planned, to prevent flooding.  Plants, trees and pond life came alive.  Everything covered in fine red dirt was now coated with thick red mud.  Including my sandals and socks.

Jacaranda trees, not native to Kenya, came alive during the long rains.  Because they don’t like thick red mud, their roots go deep and grow invasively looking for the soil and water they need.  When they bloom it’s spectacular–not just the sight, but the fragrance.  For a short time they’re at their peak.  Then the flowers carpet the ground like confetti–one last look before they disappear until next time.

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© Elouise Renich Fraser, 5 February 2015
Photo credit:  DAFraser, Jacaranda Tree, October 1999
Jacaranda Flower from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jacaranda

More Than Enough?

In Fall 1999, my husband and I spent my sabbatical semester at a seminary in Nairobi, Kenya.  Stunning beauty surrounded us:  flaming sunsets and colorful sunrises, flowering trees and shrubs, brilliant birds, sassy monkeys, hungry dogs, hungry chickens, goats and cows.  Nearly everyone lived on the seminary campus:  students, faculty, staff and administrators, all with their families.

Classes met in one of two long, converted chicken coops. Read the rest of this entry »

spring in the air

Red-faced Lovebird

1

spring in the air

birds aflutter with hope

rehearse the dance

2

cardinal clears voice

struts around lady friend

it takes a while

* * *

Sorry folks,

no backyard photos.

Just a few observations from

my kitchen window.

The male cardinal’s weak song

needed more practice and warmer air.

The female cardinal

was diffident yet didn’t fly away.

Bored, maybe?

Not sure what to do next?

This photo captures

the tentative, slightly awkward, sweet spirit of the season.

* * *

© Elouise Renich Fraser, 4 February 2015
Photo credit:  http://www.iyufera.com
Red-faced Lovebird Pair, Erongo Mountains, Namibia, December

The Ladies’ Paradise

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Last year I began reading Émile Zola’s novel, The Ladies’ Paradise, because of the back cover, not the front cover (above).  These quotes caught my eye.

‘Mouret’s sole passion was the conquest of Woman.  He wanted her to be queen in his shop, he had built this temple for her in order to hold her at his mercy.’ (from the novel)

Octave Mouret, the store’s owner-manager, masterfully exploits the desires of his female customers.  In his private life too he is the great seducer.  But when he falls in love with the innocent Denise Baudu, he discovers she is the only one of the salesgirls who refuses to be commodified.  (from the back cover summary)

New translation published by Oxford University Press 1995; first published as a novel in 1883

Commodified women. Read the rest of this entry »

wren pecks iced suet

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wren pecks iced suet

flicker picks frozen berries

I pick up hot tea

* * *

Flicker in the holly tree

Click on flicker photo to see how cold it was–
fluffed feathers, scrunched neck and, as I recall,
a blustery -5 degrees Fahrenheit.

* * *

© Elouise Renich Fraser, 3 February 2015
Photo credit:  DAFraser, February 2015

The Knock at the Door

Am I ready?  Are we ever ready?  When I was in my 40s I learned a simple practice.  It helps me when I feel anxious about one of my loved ones.

First, a little background.  I wasn’t ready to be a parent, Read the rest of this entry »

unpretentious trees

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unpretentious trees

rise above winding dirt trail

shade leafy green ferns

*  *  *

© Elouise Renich Fraser, 3 February 2015
Photo credit:  DAFraser, September 2014
Wildwood Trail in Forest Park, Portland, OR