The cattle are lowing…
The cattle are lowing,
the baby awakes,
but little Lord Jesus
no crying he makes.
I love thee, Lord Jesus,
Look down from the sky,
and stay by my cradle
’til morning is nigh. Read the rest of this entry »
in bleak midwinter
red lights flash chaos men shout
dead on arrival
* * *
winter 1965
icy stormy
dangerous Read the rest of this entry »
Here’s a little gem from Amy Carmichael. It reminds me of every child’s question, “Are we there yet?”
Not Far to Go
It is not far to go,
For Thou are near;
It is not far to go,
For Thou are here;
And not by traveling, Lord,
We come to Thee,
But by the way of love;
And we love Thee.Amy Carmichael, Mountain Breezes: The Collected Poems of Amy Carmichael, p. 16. © 1999, The Dohnavur Fellowship, published by Christian Literature Crusade. First published in Edges of His Ways (1955) and Gold Cord (1932)
I used to think a day would come when I had truly ‘arrived.’ Read the rest of this entry »
Your description of life after you got a vent is beyond painful. I wonder what would happen if this letter—this epistle from Diane—were read from the pulpit in church this Sunday? Or any Sunday? Read the rest of this entry »
Powerful, Moving
Ambiguous, Interpretive
Heard, Hidden
Stripped, Caged
Imprisoned, Locked
Unheard, Unknown
Screaming, Silent Read the rest of this entry »
December. Time to feel eagerly impatient. Eager to escape the weariness, the heaviness of waiting to be set free. To discover new life that’s been incubating all these years. Surely you’ve been there, too? Or are? I am. Read the rest of this entry »
The Christmas Present got me thinking about Grandpa–my mother’s father. Here’s what I’ve concluded: In my list of influential men in my life, especially my childhood, my California Grandpa would stand at the top of the ‘good guys’ list!
A few months ago I found out he was a child of divorce. I would never have dreamed this about him. I knew from way back that his wife, my Grandma Z, abandoned him and his two children (my mother and her younger brother), and filed for divorce. Back then I saw her as the villain, and Grandpa as the innocent victim. As an adult, I know it takes two to make a relationship work. That means there’s probably a lot more I don’t know about Grandpa.
Still, if I put him side by side with my father and other men I encountered as a child, Grandpa wins first prize for positive influence. He was a bright spot in a sometimes scary childhood. He was like a kid himself. He knew what kids wanted and needed, and he knew how to get right down there with them. In my memory, he’s the one person who most encouraged me to be myself as a child. Just the way I was.
When I married, Grandpa ‘gave me away’ to my future (now present!) husband. My father officiated at our double wedding with Sister #2 and her beloved. So we had ‘giving away’ stand-ins. I got Grandpa! In our wedding pictures he looks like a short, mischievous elf. Proud, happy, honored and thrilled to walk me down the aisle. I was equally thrilled to have him playing that role.
I sometimes wonder what my childhood might have been without his presence, his cards and his letters. I know from my mother that he wasn’t happy about her marriage to my father. But he never let on to any of us, and never asked for reports on how things were going. He just kept showing up in person, going with us on adventures to the zoo and the park, and writing Grandpa love-letters to his little women.
© Elouise Renich Fraser, 16 December 2014
I’ve been listening to Christmas music and thinking about you these days. Remembering what it was like to sing together as a family during the Christmas season, with you at the piano leading us. We stood behind you, looking over your shoulder or singing from memory Read the rest of this entry »
This story is from a book I wrote in the 1990s. It’s my most vivid childhood memory of Christmas.
I couldn’t forget the look on my mother’s face when I opened my Christmas present from my grandfather. I was about 12 years old. My mother’s father lived in California; we now lived in Georgia. Gifts and letters had replaced lively visits to his apartment. Read the rest of this entry »