Telling the Truth

connecting the dots of my life

Tag: Anxiety and Apprehension

Going to Seminary | Part 3

 

70's Elouise

Fuller Seminary Student ID Photo, Fall 1973

It’s fall term, 1973. I look calm and reasonably mature. Inside, I’m a boiling cauldron of fear and anxiety.

I don’t belong here!
I’m too old.
I’m the mother of two young children.
Don’t ask me why I decided to come to seminary.
I don’t have an answer.

I feel apologetic about taking up anyone’s time. Read the rest of this entry »

“Several years ago…”

This true story is at the end of Confessions of a Beginning Theologian.  I referred to it in a recent post.  Here’s more of the story, including the way it played out in my life a year later.

Several years ago I was in my car, on my way to the first day of spring semester classes.  I felt shaky and uncertain.  A year earlier, students had lodged serious complaints against me.  They were reported to me anonymously at the end of the semester; several pages, single-spaced and typed.  I was devastated. Read the rest of this entry »