Telling the Truth

connecting the dots of my life

Tag: Gratitude

sweet sound of heartbeat

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sweet sound of heartbeat

first song of white-throat sparrow

silent break of day

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Thank you for this gift–
another day of rest.

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© Elouise Renich Fraser, 25 January 2015
Photo credit:  http://www.birds.audobon.org via internet search
For complete profile with birdsong, click here.

The Face of Contempt | Part 2 of 2

Self-contempt has been my primary issue for years.  Until I learned to have compassion on myself, it was almost impossible not to have contempt for others.  Here’s what self-contempt has looked like Read the rest of this entry »

My heart still pounds | Part 3 of 3

What happened next
When I finished reading my statement, I felt exposed, apprehensive, and relieved that I’d finally put my thoughts together and said them out loud. Read the rest of this entry »

a cautionary tale

early morning
sleep erupts in chaos
heart on alert

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breath labored
relax
focus
breathe Read the rest of this entry »

Dear Readers, | New Year Update

Dear Readers,
High time for a report!  All the pieces aren’t in place yet, but I have a direction.

No Facebook
Not for now.  I looked at several FB pages of bloggers and authors I follow.  They were wonderful.  Yet the more I looked at the time commitment and energy output needed from me, the less eager I became.  I feel relieved that for now, my energy goes into writing for the blog.

A Haiku Challenge
The challenge is to write one haiku a day.  Sounds easy, right?  Well, if all goes well, you’ll know each day whether I’ve done that.  If I don’t, you won’t see a thing.

Areas for Focused Writing 

  • Human trafficking.  How it intersects with my growth and journey as an adult in world that treats most of us as commodities.  This isn’t just a personal issue; it’s communal, national and global.  What does this look like in my life?
  • God.  How I think, speak and write about God.  I’ve never hated God.  On the other hand, there are areas of my life that don’t yet resonate with whatever it means to bear the image of God.  I’ve been working on this for several years now.  Time to start writing!
  • Spirituality.  It hasn’t been easy to articulate what it looks like for me, or why it’s so important for me to name it.  It’s easy to say I’m a follower of Jesus Christ.  But how do I talk about my interior and exterior life?  And what happens when I do?
  • Marriage.  When I traveled up the highway 150 miles to go to college, I met the man I would marry.  Forty-nine years and counting.  My traumatic childhood affected my ability to relate to any man, much less a husband.
  • Motherhood.  Not an easy role for me as a person or as a professional.  I’m especially interested in the ways my upbringing affected my ability to be a mother.  I won’t write about my children, but will focus on my own struggles.  Not an easy topic; I’ve sometimes been judged harshly in this area.

Just so you know, I’ve made a pact with myself to keep my posts not-too-lengthy, so you can expect manageable pieces from time to time.  All mixed in with other things I love to write about:  Diane; devotional writing that moves me; haiku and poetry; letters to Mom.  Who knows, I might even write another letter to Dad.  Probably to God, too.

If you’ve found me or I’ve found you, there’s a reason.  I want to live into that while I’m able.

With gratitude, respect, and expectation!
Elouise

day breaks

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day breaks sun rises

offers light energy

hearkens toward sundown Read the rest of this entry »

A Toast to Diane

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Diane, 1954?

And to sisterly conversations.  My Number One Unplanned Series.  Early last July, I decided to engage Diane in sisterly conversations. Read the rest of this entry »

Toasting the Blame Documents

Leftovers.  Sometimes they’re wonderful.  Then there are the other times.  They just sit there in the refrigerator waiting for me to do something with them.  In reviewing my blog posts this past year, I couldn’t overlook unfinished business I still have with my father.

It isn’t as though I’ve been twiddling my thumbs. Read the rest of this entry »

Dear Readers | 1 Year Old Today!

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Dear Readers,
One year ago today, I held my breath and hit publish for the very first time.   Also one year ago, some of you started showing up for the very first time.  I’m beyond grateful for your faithful reading, comments, likes, encouragement, and presence. Read the rest of this entry »

Dear Diane | December 2005

In 2005, between Thanksgiving and Christmas, Diane made the most difficult decision of her life.  ALS seemed to have left her with no feasible options, and she opted for comfort care until she died.  The doctors thought it would take two to three weeks.  It turned into 2 months. Read the rest of this entry »