Not Smoke and Mirrors

by Elouise


9:05am, Monday. I wrote this immediately following breakfast today. Trying to capture how I felt and then let my mind and heart go wherever I needed to go.

How am I feeling right now?

Heart wants attention
Dismal gray outside and in
Solace in silence
Small gestures of kindness
To heart and body

Little tasks overwhelm
Impatient with fumbling
Trying to fit empty envelope
Other empty envelopes
On book shelf

H.ungry but not for food
A.ngry at seeming setback this morning
L.onely for family members
T.ired of search for heart health remedies

Smudge snuggles
Between radio and books
Atop radiator cabinet
Limp relaxed
Head hangs down
Seeks rising heat
Paws and pads extended
No cares
No worries
No agenda

Sounds of cars pass
Through my office window

Time to hibernate
Beneath a canopy
Ride this day out
Hidden in places
Known to God
Who will not leave me
Forever without joy

I’ll never understand the connection between mind, body and spirit. I only know it’s there, waiting to be discovered before it flits off, resisting all control. It isn’t smoke and mirrors; it’s reality. A connection mediated by our Creator who sometimes appears as an icy yet strangely protective North Wind.

© Elouise Renich Fraser, 15 February 2016
Photo credit: DAFraser, January 2015, a cold and sunny day, unlike today