The Long and Short of it
by Elouise
A ping pong in my mind
Spins from one reality to another
Grounded
I know I’m not lost
But the feelings in my bones
And in my feet keep
Bouncing back and forth
Stricken
By the deaths of colleagues
And friends I feel lost in the
Immensity and beauty of life
Wondering how long this will last
Drunk
By the glory of nature
Around but not in me
My eyes and ears turn into gluttons
For the beauty this earth
The photo at the top was my best effort at finding a photo remotely like an old postcard I received from my seminary theology professor, Dr. Paul King Jewett. It’s dated 1 July 1977. It showed up in a drawer of personal items I’ve saved over the years.
This past week two of my seminary colleagues died: Dr. J. Deotis Roberts, and Dr. Ron Sider. In addition, one of my seminary students from the mid-1990s died. Then just yesterday, I attended (via You Tube) a memorial service for a prominent member of our church.
All of this pushes me to stay focused on the glorious and inglorious parts of my life. Especially peripheral neuropathy in my feet. I now have a spiffy cane that accompanies me on my walks around the neighborhood. I don’t always need it. Nonetheless, it gives me confidence. Especially when I walk across a field or stroll past unruly dogs!
Within the last week I’ve begun using a series of online exercises. They’re offered by an Australian physiotherapist at MoreLifeHealth.com. No drugs. Just simple, daily exercises to strengthen and relax my feet and legs. Free. He also offers help for patients with peripheral neuropathy in their hands. Here’s a link to all his videos for various health issues.
Hoping your week is both challenging and uplifting!
Elouise♥
© Elouise Renich Fraser, 31 July 2022
Painting by Albert Bierstadt, circa 1876; Found at Wikimedia Commons
I just love you and your beautiful writing!!! ♥️❤️💕
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Sympathies, (((HUGS))), prayers, and ❤️
Keep taking one day at a time! Keep writing, please!
Yes, the more well-seasoned we become we are faced with the deaths of so many we knew in our lives.
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Thank you, Carolyn, for your encouragement to keep writing. I’m in that ‘so little time; so much to do’ part of life, I think. Still, in my heart I know that writing is extremely good for me. And yes, the loss of family, friends, and colleagues just keeps coming on like a tidal wave. Hoping this finds you doing well! 🙂
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Yes, I understand. I try to write every day…but it’s not for my blog. Ha! I’m having trouble getting back to blogging with any rhythm. Too busy living life! 🙂 ❤️
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Living life is pretty important! 🙂
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Thank you! You must indeed be reeling, and I’m so sorry for the loss of your friends and colleagues. Nevertheless, there is beauty withal; and somehow, I suspect that there are new adventures waiting just over the horizon for all of us. ((xxx))
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It feels like the rumbling of an earthquake. Sometimes I feel ready to go; other times I just fall in love again with the beauty of this world, despite all the warfare and climate crises. And yes, you’re absolutely right about new adventures. I think often of my sister Diane, and her ‘early’ death from ALS. I wonder what kind of adventures she’s been having. Whatever they are, I would love to be part of the party! 🙂
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I can imagine the two of you dancing. 🙂 ((xxx))
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Dear Elouise, Thank you for the poem, the reflection, and the referral to the BALANCE site! I probably talk about balance, as much as I talk about the Lord, when I am with people anywhere north of 50! I have, as a result of spending so much time with seniors, become aware that balance is one of those things that, when present, helps us a) stay safe, and b) better able to both navigate and enjoy navigating daily life. As the Physical Therapist says, “Balance can be re-trained at any point along the way.” I’m in! Monday blessings to you and D!
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Thanks for this comment, Debbie! Yes! Balance–plus fear of falling–is a horrible thing to live with. I hope you’re able to entice many of ‘us’ oldies to take charge of this terrifying reality. I think this Physical Therapist has just the right manner and approach for all senior citizens (like me!) who just need a friendly face and voice to walk and talk us through these exercises. What a weekend it has been. I hope all goes well for you in the next weeks. It was wonderful to see you up front again–with your lovely mask! 🙂
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