I’m feeling down this evening.
by Elouise
Wondering what will become of me and all of us in the days and years ahead. Generally, I love the night-time. Sometimes, though, things weigh on my mind. I’m in a bit of that overweight-mind-mood this evening.
This ‘light’ poem from Amy Carmichael put things in perspective. It reminds me of vast, spacious night skies glittering with stars, comets racing across the sky, and yes, fireflies flickering and dancing over the back yard.
At night I love looking at stars through my binoculars. It helps me get a small, calming perspective on myself and events in my life. They matter, as part of a great tapestry. More is happening than meets my eyes. Most of it while I’m sound asleep.
Here’s Amy’s poem:
Words of Light
Fear thou not the cloudy evening.
By dim waters fireflies glisten;
‘Mid the dark leaves of the tree
Starry hosts are moving; listen,
Listen, for they speak to thee:
“My Lord will take care of me.”Fear thou not the moonless darkness.
Moonless nights discover fireflies,
Star-seeds of eternity,
Luminous when common day dies.
Words of light are sown for thee:
“My Lord will take care of me.”Amy Carmichael, Mountain Breezes: The Collected Poems of Amy Carmichael
© 1999, The Dohnavur Fellowship, published by Christian Literature Crusade
Published in Ploughed Under (1934)
© Elouise Renich Fraser, 8 December 2014
Beautiful, and very timely. Thank you very much indeed, Elouise! XXX 🙂
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You’re so very welcome, Fran!
Elouise
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I have been feeling the same way, Elouise, these days. On a silent retreat this past weekend, I felt the Lord press in on my heavy heart saying, “there are patterns in the chaos”. I thought of that ‘word’ again as I read your post. I sensed God assuring me that He is as much “there” in the darkness as He is in the light….asking me to be open to His coming in either (dark or light), inviting me to wait/be still in this night – in hope – listening deeply for God and God in others, until the full moon of Him sheds a soft light of revelation into the dark. Even though I don’t comment often, reading your blog is often an “oasis moment” for me.
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Nancy, Thanks so much for this comment. Yes, “patterns in the chaos.” I sense dark patterns in the chaos as well as quiet, whispering patterns of Light. No fanfare. Just a still, small Presence that contains and supersedes our limited, dimly focused view.
Elouise
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Hi, Elouise,
Must be something in the air. I was so down last evening. Seemed like there is just way too much to be done, and no help in sight. And when I don’t get this or that done, those to whom I minister in Africa lose out. I know I am serving God, but sometimes the tasks seem so very much for my weary self. But more than tasks that make me weary are attacks from those I thought were friends. When one is vulnerable and exposes either one’s limitations and/or frustration levels to someone you think you can trust and that person turns around and hurts you and your ministry with his/her response, that is hard to bear. Then I think of Christ who bore more than I can ever imagine in order to redeem me; and I think that I should not be feeling so discouraged, but the heaviness remains. Yet, will I praise Him.
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Hi, Anne. So many burdens, and so many tasks. I hear your weariness and pray with you for relief and joy. Maybe God will send some little fireflies your way.
Elouise
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…do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Mat 6:34 Blessings! 🙂
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Yes, indeed. I appreciate your encouragement and spirit.
Elouise
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You’re most welcome. 🙂
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