Through hazy unknowns | for my Dear Readers

by Elouise

Earth in space, spacedebis@2x

Through hazy unknowns
life tumbles, turns
I wake far from home
not knowing how or who
I’m to be

I search for long-gone milestones
landmarks north stars
The sky an empty void
of echoing questions
no answers
no explanations
no solace

I wander between knowing what I
think I know and fearing this
could be true
Truth so fragile
so easily pierced by life’s urgent
need for me to be
someone I am not

Life itself a great puzzlement of
interlocking pieces
leading somewhere
or nowhere
I’m never quite sure
A little light
a little meaning
a little distance
from the void of not knowing

Will this come round right?
Every book every scrap of history
every letter every pain
every sorrow every shame
every secret
wells up in me
competing for attention
Pick me!
I hold the key to golden answers

Can you help me find my way home?

* * *

The more I learn the less I know. And the larger the puzzle grows.

Nevertheless, I’d rather be moving than stuck in the water with no breeze or current to carry me along. I’d also rather know than not know. So I just keep going! Writing, that is.

Working on some of this publicly has been frightfully exhilarating and sobering. You might like to know I passed my 500th post milestone this week! That means there’s way more than enough here for anyone in his or her right mind to read.

  • For those who read regularly, a huge thank you!
  • For those who read from time to time, a huge thank you!
  • And for those obsessive few (you know who you are!) who catch up in fits of furious (fast and intense) reading, a huge thank you!
  • For those who leave likes and comments, a huge thank you! I love hearing your perspectives, your experiences, and your questions.
  • For those who don’t leave likes and comments, a huge thank you for taking time to read.
  • For those who just wandered in and don’t know where they landed but read this far anyway, a huge thank you!
  • Finally, for my followers, and regular visitors who choose not to follow (no, I don’t know who you are!), a huge thank you!

I think that covers the ground. If you’re not in one of these categories, my profuse apologies.


© Eouise Renich Fraser, 30 July 2015
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