Weariness
by Elouise
Cape May Warbler
Weariness
Floods my body
Lethargy tells
Me to stop now
Before I collapse
Without anything
Coherent on this
Page of my life
Waiting to be
Lived
I hear birds
Outside the window
Their insistent beautiful
Songs float through
Early morning air
Searching for a
Place to land
Half asleep
My mind floats at will
Reassuring me
That all will be well
That is well
I want to believe
Yet cannot stop pondering
The fate of all that
Is not well now
And forever
I don’t think I’m hitting rock bottom. I am, however, weary in body and spirit. Sometimes I’m standing still. Going nowhere. Other times I’m on a roller coaster swinging wildly between slow, difficult climbs uphill, and furious descents to whatever awaits me.
My mind tries naming things I’ve accomplished this day, this week, this month, this year. Yet the litany of things done doesn’t relieve the anguish of this heavy, relentless tug at my body and spirit.
We here in the USA are in a mess. We don’t know how to get out of it. Whether we like it or not, it colors every day of our lives.
Nonetheless, I believe our Creator and Redeemer understands the big picture, and invites me to trust that all will be well. One day, one breath, one weariness and one joy at a time.
Elouise♥
© Elouise Renich Fraser, 7 April 2021
Photo found at birdsandblooms.com
Telling the Truth 
We can all relate to your feelings, SweetElouise. And…”One day, one breath, one weariness and one joy at a time.” Yes, exactly! 🙂 Your words encourage me! 🙂
Lena Horne said, “It’s not the load that breaks us down, it’s the way we carry it.”
Reminds me to let go and let God….and remember those who care and love want to help me carry my burdens, so I should let them. 🙂
A person (and author) who encourages me in my life is Corrie Ten Boom…
“If you look at the world, you’ll be distressed. If you look within, you’ll be depressed. If you look at God you’ll be at rest.”
Another who encourages me is Joni Eareckson Tada…
“I want to stay in the habit of ‘glancing’ at my problems and ‘gazing’ at my Lord.”
I pray for you, Elouise, and I join you in prayer, as we try to navigate each new day.
(((HUGS))) ❤ 🙂
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Thank you, Carolyn, for your prayers and for these great quotes from women who didn’t have easy roads to follow. Your last line says it all. Each day is different…even though I’d rather choose the kind of day I’d like to have! Today the sun is out; I slept well; and I just got a small (emphasis on small) project done. 🙂
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Relate so deeply with your words. My will has to be exercised to make sure I do not waste these struggles so I can help someone else just as your honest open words did with you poem. thank you
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You’re so welcome, and thank you for this comment. We do need each other. Especially during these still-strange days of Covid and hot politics. I pray your weariness will be bearable–one day or even one moment at a time.
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