yesterday’s gifts
by Elouise
Each new morning
I wake and bid farewell
To yesterday’s gifts
What was tomorrow
Stretches like infinity
Beyond human scope
Imagination
Feasts on luscious dreams rising
Only to vanish
How quickly life ebbs
Leaving poignant reminders
Of yesterday’s gifts
These days I’m keenly aware of my age and how quickly my health is changing. This week I’ll get a report from my hematologist on my most recent blood tests. D is going with me. I don’t know whether the news will be positive or negative. I only know it’s related to my newly diagnosed nondiabetic peripheral neuropathy.
In the meantime, I’m consciously practicing what doesn’t come easily for me: living one day at a time. The relief has been great, especially when it comes to obsessing about outcomes.
Several days ago I came to the end of the day without having played one note on the piano. It was time to be on my way to bed. I was in the kitchen, exhausted, and about to turn off the lights and go upstairs when I realized I had a choice. I went into the living room, turned on the lights, got out a favorite hymnal, and played my heart out. Then I packed it in for the day, more than a bit teary.
No, it didn’t solve everything. The next day had its own challenges. But just making that unplanned decision flipped a switch in me that I’ve rarely used. The switch called Do What You Want to Do. Right Now. You may not have another opportunity.
Praying you’ll find courage and strength to take care of yourself today.
Elouise♥
© Elouise Renich Fraser, 31 January 2022
Image found at medium.com
I love this because I started today the process of making a quilt, never made one before but we live in northern mn and the days are snowy, cold, very cold and I need people besides my husband. I think playing the piano is a wonderful skill to have. I need to get out my sound tracks and sing and sing and sing. Thanks for the motivation.
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Congratulations for starting to make a quilt! I’ve never made one. Ironic, since I grew up in quilt-making country. I just played my piano this morning…ending, as usual, all teary and happy! I hope your sing-along lifts your spirit. 🎶🎶🎶
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Beautiful and poignant. Touched my heart. Thank you, Elouise!
Continued prayers for you. ❤
Those things in life that get our mind off of stuff for a bit, help us relax, bring us some smiles, and comfort us are so valuable. I am so grateful for them. For me, one of them is to put on my fave music and do some writing, with little Coop snoring softly by my feet. 🙂
(((HUGS))) 🙂
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Thank you, Carolyn! I had good news at the hematologist’s office today–just put up a quick report with some photos I like. I still feel overwhelmed sometimes–as in ‘how much more can this mortal body take’? I know others, like you for example, have their own burdens. I’m learning the hard way, late in life, that having dealt with health emergencies in the past, that doesn’t mean there aren’t any more to come. People like you give me courage and make me laugh–not my best gift! I hope you’re having a relaxing day–there’s so much tension in the air these days. I’m also praying you have a good night’s sleep with (or without) Coop “snoring softly” by your feet!
Hugs of gratitude back to you. 🙂
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You have my prayers, ❤ , and (((HUGS))) in abundance! 🙂
I'm glad I've been helpful!
You have been so helpful to me, too! I sure do appreciate you! 🙂
(((HUGS))) 🙂
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